Hello! ❤ I hope you’re having a beautiful day. 🙂 I’ve been working on coming up with post ideas recently, and one topic I’ve wanted to write about for a long time are the different things the Lord has rescued me from. When I realized that I could incorporate this post idea into a new blog tag, that’s what I decided to do!
Hello! ❤ I’d like to invite you to attend a coffee chat-type update post on my blog on this beautiful Friday! I’ve been making lots of changes on my blog recently, as well as huge positive changes in my real life, and I wanted to let you in on all that’s been happening (and will be happening!) around here.
How I’m Challenging Myself This March
I’m going to be improv blogging this whole upcoming month. I can’t tell you how excited I am for this, especially since I just made it up, haha! From day one of Dreaming of Guatemala, I’ve been a planned blogger, scripting everything down to the simplest of punctuation. I’ve shared before that I’m a perfectionist, and this is quite possibly most evident in the way I blog. (Anyone remember when I kept posts scheduled and publishing the summer I had strep throat, so no one even knew I was bedridden? No one remembers that? Alright haha) So, surprisingly enough, I’m tired of doing this. I’m tired of being such a “great” planner that I stress myself out trying to get everything perfect (insider information: I never accomplish perfection), so I’m going to challenge myself to do something. *rubs hands together* I am not going to write a single ‘post ideas’ list in March (I have so many of these lists, you have no idea), and I’m not going to sit down to ‘brainstorm’ blog posts (which, as a matter of fact, never works!). Instead, I’m going to make up content as it comes to me. This kind of mindset is where my best jokes come from! I don’t sit around trying to figure out how I can be funny in upcoming circumstances; I just keep my eyes open in everyday life settings, incorporating comedy as it fits. So, I’m going to do the same thing in blogging. When I have an idea, I’ll write about it!
I’m going to figure out how I want to blog on Living For His Delight. This is definitely still a work-in-progress, but I’ve been praying about it a lot and I feel like I’m getting closer and closer to understanding where this beautiful new blog fits into my life. I think that to get into writing posts on this site, it will take stepping out of my comfort zone, but I’m fine with that – I’m challenging myself this month!
I’ll be sharing a new blog series on Fridays called ‘Weekly Challenges.’ Today doesn’t count since I’m sharing this update post, haha, so come back next week to see what my first challenge was! I’ll explain more about what this post series is all about then.
I’ll be working out regularly and slowly getting in shape. This is something I’ve been wanting to do since the first of January (I’m quite the New Year’s resolutionist, haha), but a tailbone injury left me unable to exercise for about two weeks, which completely threw me for a loop. Now that I’ve completely recovered from that, I’m feeling more and more like taking control of my lifestyle and eating habits. One way my parents are helping me to do this is by helping pay for gym memberships for me and my brother, which he and I are very happy about! I’m taking it a day at a time, listening to my body and doing as much cardio as I can without injuring myself. My eczema and weak hips have stopped me from enjoying and being able to exercise for a long time, but I’m not going to let that hold me back anymore – I’m going to find out what works for me, showing gratitude every day for what I’m capable of. ❤
I’m going to keep trying new things, striving for progress over perfection. This is SUCH a huge part of my life right now. I wouldn’t call it a goal, since it’s an ongoing decision, but man – this mindset is very close to my heart. Things such as nurturing forgiveness, overcoming perfectionism, and moving out of my comfort zone are my top priority right now.
I’m going to cut back on sugar and make more healthy recipes. *looks around absently* Is this even possible?? Haha! After I got my wisdom teeth out last summer, I developed a sugar addiction post-recovery that still hasn’t gone away. I’m going to read up on how to curb a sugar addiction, because my goodness, I’m tired of feeling guilty about how much sugar I consume. I want to eat what’s right for me so that I can be happy with how I’m eating. I want processed sugar to be a weekly treat instead of a daily one! I’ll probably write more posts in-depth on this subject …
I’m going to focus more of my attention on screen-free hobbies. I mean, I love watching TV, browsing YouTube, writing blog posts, and playing video games, but I feel like I have to give my eyes a break sometimes! There are soooo many things I love to do in my room, and I want to prioritize those things higher up on my list of things to do.
This post was so much fun to write! ❤ I hope that you’re looking forward to March like I am, because I can’t wait to see what the Lord has in store for it. Let me know in the comments below:
What are you looking forward to doing in March?
Hi guys! I hope you’re having a beautiful weekend! Today, I’m here to talk about some things that have been on my heart recently, and they all happen to be topics I never bring up in the blogging world. That’s not to say I’ve been hiding them, because there are SO many things that we experience and feel, and it would be near impossible to write about them all! So, I’m here to be a bit vulnerable with you today, and I would love to connect with others who are going through something similar to what I’m experiencing right now! I’ll be here to support you (:
If you haven’t already scrolled down to see what the three things are (I know you totally did, lol), I’ll share them with you now!
1. I am extremely introverted and suffer from social anxiety.
Online, this personality trait doesn’t in any way shine through. I love reaching out to new bloggers all the time, and I enjoy having conversations with others via comments and/or email. To all the people who know me in real life, however, I am a different person. I’m beginning to think that maybe my blogger self (or the real life me, either way) is the other’s alter ego, they are such polar opposites! I struggle to have basic conversations with new people, I consistently go out of my way to avoid interaction with others when I’m out and about (i.e. choosing self-checkout instead of the regular register), and I especially feel awkward about striking up conversation with anyone outside of my family.
This is not because I’m lacking in social skills.
I’ve been bullied.
Since I was ten years old, I have been [periodically] dealing with cyberbullying, exclusion from church groups, and just your average bullying, too. People don’t like me, guys. lol But that’s not true about everyone! The nice people that I do meet, I struggle to get along with because I’m blaming myself for other people hating me without cause. lol I live a sad life, y’all.
But there’s hope!!
I am not staying in any social situation that’s bad for me. Family, friends, church … online, real life – if it affects me negatively, I leave it.
I am learning to see the abuse I have endured for what it is; a problem of the accuser, not my own. It’s not my fault; I am simply the target of their anger and depression.
The past is behind me. I desire to slowly get more comfortable reaching out to others in real life, in the smallest of ways, and letting whatever might come at me slide right off me.
I found a few books at the library yesterday that will help me with this!! If I enjoy reading them, you will most likely see a post or two on them in the future.
Now, on to my second point.
2. I have a sensory processing disorder.
Since childhood, I was known to respond to physical and audible stimuli more intensely than most. Loud sounds were very bothersome. I hated getting hurt. I was extremely ticklish and didn’t like being touched. I also found strong smells/odors very offensive and overwhelming. On the positive side, I was able to hear conversations that were being had in the house rooms away from where I was. I had a very good ear for the tones of voices and, over the years, have developed a strong ability to accurately impersonate many different people.
The traits that I mentioned above have carried over into my life as a young adult, as well. When it comes to how I react to being touched, hearing loud noises, and smelling something strong, as well, everything feels more intense to me than others. It is very bothersome, and as I am only just beginning to understand this about myself, it is quite hard to take in. Truthfully,
The fact that ‘disorder’ is in the official term was upsetting to me.
When I think of disorders, I don’t picture something like this. I see a disorder as something different from everyone else, and I don’t want to be different; I want to fit in. I suddenly felt like I was not like everyone else … but that isn’t the case at all.
I was beginning to let this shape the view I have of myself, instead of letting it be the answer to my problems.
When I realized that, I was instantly able to overcome that anxiety! I am so thankful that the Lord led me through this, because it got off to a rather rocky start. ❤
I found a book at the library on this subject, as well. (If you couldn’t already tell, this enlightening library visit is what prompted this post, haha!) I really hope that it helps me – I’m sure I’ll get at least a little something out of it! – and if I do, I’ll share my findings with you guys.
On to my third point. This is the most apparent one, as it has shown itself in little ways during my time of blogging!
3. I am a perfectionist.
Is this one a shocker?? Probably not, haha!! The May blogging challenge is proof of this – not the challenge itself, but keeping up with my normal post schedule most of those days, too! My mom pointed that fact out to me when I was later trying to figure out why I was so stressed throughout May, LOL.
But my perfectionism is not, and I repeat, not isolated to my blogging life.
If I’m going to play a game, or make a craft, or bake a cake, etc, the finished product has to be perfect, or I absolutely despise it and get upset at myself for failing my own unattainable goals. *sighs* The cycle is endless.
Instead of learning from past mistakes, I get upset at myself for what I just did!
I know that there are many other perfectionists out there, and that there are all forms and levels of it. The one thing I do know is that mine hinders my happiness in many ways, and that there are steps I can take at overcoming it – or, at the very least, toning it down.
If you guessed that I found a few book on perfectionism at the library, then you’re absolutely right, haha! I’m very excited about this one, actually – not because it’s more exciting than the other books I found, as they all look great, but I had no idea there were books like this out there! I can’t wait to read it!
Here’s the list of the books I found, if you’re interested in checking them out yourself:
- Quiet Influence: The Introvert’s Guide to Making a Difference by Jennifer B. Kahnweiler, PhD
- The Happy Introvert by Elizabeth Wagele
- The Highly Sensitive Person’s Survival Guide by Ted Zeff, PhD
- The Everything Guide to Coping with Perfectionism by Ellen Bowers, PhD
Thank you sooo much for reading today’s post! It gave me such joy to write all about this, and I would love to talk to you in the comments below. x