Becoming a Big Sister For the Fourth Time

FeaturedBecoming a Big Sister For the Fourth Time

On Friday afternoon, I found out something that I’d really like to share with you guys!

My mom is going to have another baby. ❤

I wanted to write a post about this, not only to let you guys know, but also because … well … I have mixed feelings on it.

I wish I could say that I'm excited, and joyful, and really happy about this beautiful news … but because of some deep-rooted fears that I have, I feel way more worried than I do happy.

Here's why.

I'm scared that my mom will have to go through a lot of pain. When she had my little sister Elizabeth last summer, Elizabeth was born via c-section. It took my mom weeks to heal from that, and that time was hard on our whole family, especially me, as we did our best to take care of her and comfort her when she was hurting so much.

I'm scared that others will think we're weird. When people see big families, they tend to put them in a certain category, and that makes me feel so awkward.

I'm scared that others will think I'm a teen mom. I'm not usually the only one caring for Elizabeth when we're out and about, but when I do, people have gotten the wrong impression before. I love having younger siblings – especially babies! – but because I'm afraid of others' opinions, that has taken away my joy.

I'm looking forward to this baby. I can't wait to meet him or her … but that excitement is drowned out for the time being by the worries that are filling my heart.

It will take time to heal from how that hospital stay last June drained me. I'll have to write a post on that sometime soon. And it will take me time to learn that others' opinions aren't what matter. One day, I'll feel better about this, and over the next weeks and months, I will get to the point where I will eagerly anticipate the arrival of my new little sibling.

But for now … I am thinking things through. I am praying. I am giving myself room to heal.

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Throughout my mom's pregnancy, I will be writing more posts about how I'm feeling, how her pregnancy with Elizabeth went, and other life updates. I would deeply appreciate all of your encouragement, support, and prayers.

Thank you so much for reading. ❤

— Maggie

Experiencing This Change

Experiencing This Change

Today is a new day.

I have spent nearly the past year of my life (at least!) living in the belief that past mistakes must dictate my actions for the new day. For the last twelve months especially, I have held things against myself – and my family, too, really struggling with being able to forgive, to let go and exhibit grace. It’s been a bumpy journey, trying to figure out why I’ve felt like this for so long.

The day I realized I was shackled to these sins was the day I could let them go.

I have prayed about this problem often, and now I can see that on my hardest day, at my lowest point, the Lord was still there for me. I’m always unable to see His hand at work until I take a step back – and what I can now see is absolutely breathtaking.

He is able to use every problem, sin, mistake, and shortcoming to lead me back to where I need to be – and He already has.

He has taught me about grace, forgiveness, mercy, kindness, and love.

For the past year of my life, I was too focused on taking care of me, of dealing with my own issues … and I no longer took the time necessary to nurture the beautiful relationships I had with my family. I left them behind in my own despair … and even then, nothing changed. The friendships I had with them were going downhill, as well as my self-esteem – and self-control. Focusing on “taking care” of myself didn’t help at all.

Because I wasn’t looking to the right Person.

The moment I laid all of this baggage, these burdens and worries and past mistakes, all down at the feet of my Lord and Savior, I felt a release. A literal weight was off my shoulders as He took them onto His own.

I had been carrying them for too long.

The pit of despair will take quite a bit of time to get myself out of … but I now know that the Lord and my family are waiting for me at the top. I know that they all long for the moment of my return, when I can finally be the loving person I once was, the caring person I often am, but can definitely be at all times. I’ll no longer have anger, impatience, and problems with forgiveness; they have all shown me the important thing I had left behind these past twelve months.

LOVE.

Love for my family, love for the Lord, and very importantly, love for myself. When I stop judging myself and give it all to Him, it is then that I’m able to love and care for others – not before.

It starts here – in my heart. And the new days that come, including today, will not continue to carry yesterday’s burdens.

I am learning to give, to let go, to learn, and to love.

Today is a new day.

— Maggie

Spotlight Saturday ~ Jirah from Jirah Merizz

Spotlight Saturday ~ Jirah from Jirah Merizz

Hi guys! How is your Saturday going so far? I’m off to some different stores today, and maybe the library, as well (I’m always going there it seems, ahaa). I probably won’t get books to do a library book sale haul again any time soon, but hey, you never know, and that post was really fun to write, hehe.

Anyway, back to the focus of this post! The girl I interviewed for today’s spotlight is such a sweetheart – it brought me joy to interview her! I hope you have fun reading it as much as we enjoyed writing it! ❤

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Interview #7

Welcome to this week’s Spotlight Saturday, everyone! Thanks for dropping by. Today, I’m interviewing a very sweet girl whom I recently met in the blogging world – I’m so glad that we found each other’s blogs! Please welcome Jirah from Jirah Merizz!

Ahh thank you so much for thinking about featuring me in your Spotlight Saturdays! I really love this series and I’m so glad to be a part of it. Thank you so much, Maggie! You’re so lovely!

Aw, you’re welcome! I’m looking forward to interviewing you today. First, I’d like to know a bit more about you! Tell us about yourself.

Thank you so much and hi everyone! I am Jirah Merizz and I blog about variant topics– it could be a little bit about life, beauty, books, Christianity and adventures.

That sounds so cool, Jirah! Your Christianity posts are my personal favorite 🙂 So, out of all the posts you’ve written so far, do you have a few that you love the most? Why are they your favorites?

Awh thank you! I adore your Christianity posts too and your calling! So far, my favourite post that I’ve ever written is my “Yesterday’s Outfit” and “My Favourite Bible Verses“. I really love my “Yesterday’s Outfit” post because it was the first time I’ve posted an outfit in my blog and I’m glad I gained courage to post that. “My Favourite Bible Verses” is my absolute favourite too because it was so fun editing those typographies– I also gained Christian friends by it which makes me so happy.

The outfit post is such a great one! And I love all the Bible verses you shared on that other post, as well 🙂 My next question is, what inspires you to blog?

Since I came back from a very good youth camp which talked about God, then I’ll definitely say that God’s love inspires me to blog and to do everything in my every day life. Of course, my family also inspires me and the other thing that really inspires me is that I want to share my life with other bloggers and readers out there. We all have an amazing life and it’s our thought that matters.My co-bloggers are a huge inspiration to me as well.

Those are all great inspirations! I am definitely motivated to blog from all of them, as well. My next question is, if you could give three pieces of advice to an aspiring blogger, or to someone who has just recently joined the blogging world, what would they be?

  1. First of all, you should blog about what you really love. Don’t blog about beauty because you think it gets the most views and that’s the same about books, life and any other category. Blog about it because you’re passionate about it.
  2. My second advice would be find a perfect time to publish your post. You can arrange a schedule but honestly, just write when you feel like you wanted to write and share something. Do not procrastinate (though it’s my thing aha) because if you did, it will be shown in the post.
  3. The third one– if you want to gain more traffic and audiences, spend a lot of time searching for new bloggers. There are so many bloggers out there and they can help you. If you want to gain like 10 followers in a particular day, then search up to 30 blogs because not everyone you follow will follow you back. 🙂 And don’t ever say that “please follow back” because bloggers definitely don’t like it.

Great advice, Jirah! Thank you for sharing them with us. Next, I’d like to know: what are your favorite things to do when you’re not blogging?

So when I’m not blogging, I’m either journalling, reading a book or I’m outside. I spend a lot of time blogging and I can literally spend time in WordPress all day but I gotta rest my eyes though. Aha. And oh, I’m also learning Italian when I’m not blogging. 🙂

That’s great. Oh I love doing all of those things, too! Well, except learning Italian, haha. Hopefully one day! Thank you so much for letting me interview you, Jirah. Is there anything else you’d like to tell my readers before we go?

Hi to everyone who reads Maggie’s blog! I want to let you all know that you are amazing and whatever you’re going through right now, you can surpass it all. Always trust the Lord in everything and He will make your paths straight! Maggie has such an amazing blog and she’s really lovely, so thank you so much, Maggie, for interviewing me.

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Thank you all so much for reading! It would make both of us very happy if your could visit her blog for yourself. She writes about different adventures she goes on, as well as her faith, style, and other interests!

— Maggie