“Stop worrying about what can go wrong, and get excited about what can go right.”
I mentioned in a post recently that I have the tendency to overthink.
It’s something I’ve struggled with
quite a bit daily since I was a preteen. I worry about past mistakes, the uncertainty of the future, and everything else in between. I’m scared that I’m not making the right decisions, and I’m saddened by the wrong that I’ve done.
Instead of being able to see the beautiful progress I make (especially just here recently), my faults and shortcomings are ever before me. Having a brain that remembers far too much is both a blessing and a curse, but I feel that the latter plagues me more than the former.
I am slowly learning, by relying on the power of the Holy Spirit, that I can put these recurring thoughts out of my head. I’m learning about how to live more in the moment and much less in the past and future, which is much easier said than done.
If I’m always living in what once was, or what possibly will be, where does my life in the present go?
I don’t realize it at the time I’m overthinking, since my mind is consumed by anxiety then, but I’m sacrificing truly living if I’m dwelling on the bad in the past or the mysteries of the future.
I do not wish to live my life governed by the stress that wells up within me. The Lord has not called me to barely make my way through this thing called life, and He hasn’t planned for me to figure all this out for myself, either.
When I trust in Him to lead me, I am never disappointed.
There have been times (and I’m certain there will be more) when things happen in a slower manner than I’d prefer. If I’m seeking an answer from Him on something, then I feel like it’s important for me to know right then. I can’t see the fact until later that He’s always at work behind-the-scenes, organizing and perfectly planning situations long before I’m even experiencing them.
For example, I’ve been thinking a lot about church lately. In the past month and a half, I’ve visited two different churches near me, and I’m still processing the experiences I’ve had at each. I’ve spent a lot of time in prayer over both, but I kept stressing over what was to come from all of this.
I began ruining what could be a beautiful time of learning, and my awareness of this has helped me to make progress in controlling where my thoughts go. I have been able to manage it to some degree (which is a miracle!), and I am very grateful for what the Lord is teaching me.
He knew, before I even learned about the existence of these churches or the people that are part of them, that this exists in my life for a reason. He desires for me to trust Him to work out the details, and to be faithful with what He’s showing me and where He’s leading me.
Even though I never expected to end up where I am now, I know that I am very safe in the middle of His will. There are still things that I don’t understand or know yet, but that’s okay – He does!
One of the most crucial parts of the Christian walk is learning to trust the Lord with what we cannot see.
I am thankful for the things that are unexpected blessings in my life. I’m thankful for friends I never thought I’d have, memories I didn’t know I’d experience, places I had no idea I’d see, and so much more. If my life only consisted of what I mapped out and attained myself, I wouldn’t be thankful for the little things, like watching the sunset, making my baby sister smile, or writing a card to a dear friend.
The Lord is teaching me about what truly matters in His eyes, and that’s an experience I’ll never get tired of living.
In conclusion, I’ve decided to live here – right in this moment. I will learn from the past instead of dwelling on it, and I will eagerly anticipate the future without obsessing over it. It’s a daily challenge to reside in the moment, but the outcome is absolutely worth it.
“Roll your works upon the Lord [commit and trust them wholly to Him; He will cause your thoughts to become agreeable to His will, and] so shall your plans be established and succeed.” – Proverbs 16:3 AMPC