Hello there! ❤ I hope that you are well. I never share posts this late in the day on my blog, but after what happened in my life today, I knew that I needed to share it. It’s a life update/ramble-type post that I’ve poured out my heart into. It gets pretty emotionally, just to give you a heads-up, lol.
Since the day my little sister Elizabeth was born two and a half years ago, I have been miserable.
I cannot express to you how bad things have been for me, and it was all because I was basing my views on life on my circumstances instead of what my life is as a whole. I was allowing each and every thing that went wrong to throw me for a loop. I developed ways of dealing with stress that didn’t make any sense, because they just prolonged and intensified the issues.
Over the past two and a half years, the Lord has been at work in my heart, even when I couldn’t see it. I had no idea that I was living in a dark pit all this time, because when you spend enough time in the darkness, you eventually forget that it’s there. I forgot what it was like to be happy, for my default disposition to be cheerful, to look for the best in everything and to love the people in my life and the circumstances I found myself in.
For a while now, I’ve shared on my blog when there have been times that I’m feeling better and “doing” better as a whole. What I didn’t realize then, however, was that there was a lot more baggage I needed to let go of before I could actually be set free.
Earlier today, the Lord showed me the difference between how I thought I was living and how I was actually living. He showed me how I’ve been wrongly accusing situations and other people for my reckless actions.
He showed me how lost I’ve been, and He also showed me that now I’m found.
I’m ready to be happy again.
I’m ready to truly forgive and actually forget.
I’m ready to live the life that the Lord has been dreaming of for me since the day I was born.
I’m ready to enjoy blogging, all of my hobbies, loving people,
and honestly becoming the best version of myself that I can be.
Will you come with me? I’m ready to begin this next chapter of my life.
“I love the Lord, because He has heard [and now hears] my voice and my supplications.” – Psalm 116:1