I’m inviting you to grab a cup of coffee and stay for a while – I’d love to have a coffee chat with you! In this post, I’ll tell you about my past few weeks, and you can let me know in the comments below what life’s been like for you lately.
Starting a couple weeks ago, I began looking into getting work. I applied at a few places, went to one interview, did a lot of thinking and praying, and sorted through how getting my first job would affect my life and make me feel. I really, really thought at the beginning of this job-hunting journey in January that it would be a wonderful situation, that the timing would be right, and that I would be ready for this.
What ended up happening, however, really challenged me to view my life differently.
Looking into potentially acquiring my first job really put me in a kind of spotlight I haven’t experienced before. I had to be professional and prepared in a way that other situations haven’t required me to do in the past. I questioned my abilities and my strengths, but I also ended up singling in on my weaknesses. I began feeling unqualified for what I was trying to do, and feelings of hopelessness began to creep into my subconscious thoughts.
The biggest thing I noticed, however, was this: I was trying to work out something in my life that the Lord didn’t have ready for me.
In my relationship with the Lord, there have been countless times where I’ve desperately desired something to the point where I’ve tried to pursue it with His blessing. That’s not how following Him works, and I’ve ended up learning it the hard way.
The Lord knew all along that to get me to have the mindset He wanted me to have, I’d have to go through valleys, lowlands, and many pits before I was willing to truly say, Not my will, but Yours be done.
I have been following the Lord for seven years. Since I was eleven years old, I have been deeply in love with my Heavenly Father, and that has slowly been changing the way I look at my life and this world.
Things that used to haunt me are now temporary aspects of my personality that He’s enabling me to overcome. The things I used to “need” more than Him are now things I no longer desire. For years, He’s been tenderly teaching me that He is trustworthy. He has beautiful plans for me. I do not need to go through this life anxious or afraid.
Trying to find a job without first knowing, through prayer, that it was His will ended up stressing me out beyond measure. I was attempting to do the next, logical step for my life in my own strength instead of having faith and relying on His strength.
Yesterday morning, for the first time ever, I truly felt like I could tell Him that what He has for me means much more to me than anything this world has to offer.
Starting now, there will be a difference in how I post. I want everything I share on this blog to be a blessing to me and an encouragement to others. I want to be intentional in the way I live, so that everything I do, say, think, and feel would be filtered through the Lord’s love.