“Perhaps the world’s second worst crime is boredom. The first is being a bore.” – Unknown
For a long time, I’ve struggled with staying occupied.
I remember as a kid, I’d be hanging out in my room doing an activity or playing with toys, then suddenly I’d stop and feel like there was not a thing that interested me.
In more recent times, I’ll often look around my room, which is overflowing with creative possibilities and is a great place to work and get inspired … but I can’t shake the boredom that haunts me.
At some point in my life, chronic boredom became my biggest hobby.
By taking one look at my blog, you could probably guess that I have a busy brain. My brain is always buzzing with ideas that need acting on, which might be the reason why I’ll come across points in my day when I feel like all is for naught. That mindset is the exact opposite of my usual tendency, and it’s so hard for me because it makes me stop dead in my tracks and regret everything I’ve been spending time working on.
How can I go from happily engaging in activities that are worthwhile to suddenly feeling like I’ve been sitting still, doing absolutely nothing for hours?
There are a lot of things about myself that this blog has helped me to uncover and bring out into the light. Writing helps me to go deeper and understand myself in new ways, which a paper journal really doesn’t provide for me. (It might, if my hand could keep up with my brain.)
The first draft I wrote for this third week of the mindful living challenge was on a subject that I need working on, but it wasn’t close to my heart. I decided to trash that and start a post on embracing boredom, which was not an easy task.
Boredom is hard for me to talk about because it’s one of my worst enemies.
I realized a few weeks ago in a comment I made to the pastor’s wife (from my church) that I am addicted to productivity.
I’m always checking my focuses, wanting to make sure that nothing in my life has become an idol to me. Before now, I had no idea that getting things done would be something that could (or would) entangle me.
I think that the reason boredom haunts me as much as it does is because I feel powerless against it.
When we begin to believe something that’s happening to us is outside of our control, then it is, whether it actually is or not.
I’ve been scared of boredom for quite a while. For me, it feels like I’m casually making my way through my day, when I suddenly fall into a hole. It’s like I never think to look up, as if my head’s stuck looking down into the darkness that surrounds my feet. I’m not sure how I ever manage to get out of that hole, it affects me that much.
I really didn’t want to write this post – at first, I trashed the draft before I could really begin it. That action made me acknowledge how much of a problem this is for me, and how important it was for me to talk about it. That’s why I’m making embracing boredom part of this challenge for myself.
So, why does boredom affect me so much? It’s because being productive means much more to me than it should. I don’t like hanging out, doing “nothing,” or participating in other mindless activities for too long because I feel like I have a clock that’s ticking down in the back of my mind, all the time. I’ll get really affected when my day goes a different direction than I thought it would, in whatever way that may be, because if my to-do list is left unchecked, then that day was a loss … when it really wasn’t.
Can you see that this is a problem?
“Boredom is the feeling that everything is a waste of time; serenity, that nothing is.” – Thomas Szasz
I want to get into the habit of loving and heartily embracing everything that comes my way.
The mundane tasks of everyday life, the fun surprises scattered across my week, all of the different ways in which I spend my time, I want to remember that it all has a purpose. If I stop and think about it for a moment, I’ll see that I expertly transition between tasks, whether they’re unexpected or planned. I don’t end up sitting around like I think I do; I’m always up to something that holds worth for me. That may be writing a blog post, watching my little sisters, reading a book, cleaning up in the kitchen, playing a game with my brothers, running to the store … I’m always utilizing my time.
If I can learn how to stay mindful when I get bored, then it won’t have any power over me. It will be unable to hurt me if I put it in a different light, allowing boredom to be the springboard from which I transition into another part of my day.
If you’ve ever struggled with embracing boredom, I invite you to come along with me on this challenge. Living mindfully in 2019 is my biggest goal, and this blog series has already helped so much with that. ❤
Why I Want To Embrace Boredom:
- I will no longer feel like everything I’m doing is pointless.
- I’ll use those down times to fuel the next thing that I do.
- I want to see breaks in my day as an opportunity to shift my focus.
- I don’t want boredom to depress me.
- I want to learn to accept how my brain works.
- I want to create new habits, which will help me to be okay with boredom.
Why do you want to embrace boredom?
Will you join me on this challenge?
“The way to get started it to quit talking and begin doing.” – Walt Disney