Hi there! I hope you’re having a beautiful day. ❤ This morning, I was thinking about what post I’d like to write and share today, and within moments, I knew in my heart that this was the one!
I love adding to post series I’ve been keeping up with for a while, and the last post I shared on this topic was last September, where I celebrated blogging / Guatemala-dreaming for eight months! (Check out that post here.) Today’s milestone is quite a bigger one, and I’m so grateful to be able to say that these combined passions are still very relevant in my life. Thank you so much for reading – I hope you enjoy!
Eighteen Months of Dreaming of Guatemala
In the year and a half that has elapsed since I started blogging again, I have learned so much. While I know that I’ll always be learning, it’s humbling to look back and see how much progress I’ve made in this amount of time, both in my writing, my confidence, and my hopes and dreams.
The Lord is teaching me how precious life is; He is showing me the love that I am capable of giving; He reminds me that my life is in the palm of His hand. I look back and realize, in 2017 to this point in 2018, I have learned much more than I was originally aware of.
When I began Dreaming of Guatemala in January 2017, I remember being wary of trying blogging again because in the years before, my blogs had only ever acquired tiny audiences. I remember in the first few months of 2017, my posts reflected the turmoil that often raged in my heart, tainting my content with fake smiles and the good person I desired to be. I unfortunately let what was happening in my life, especially within my family, infiltrate my well-being instead of allowing myself to be led to the Rock that is higher than I. I couldn’t draw close to the Lord in my stubbornness and anxiety. I turned away from the King of kings more than once in 2017, unable to realize just how much I needed Him.
I remember finally feeling whole in January of 2018. A year after this blog journey began, my focus was finally where it should be. I was sharing posts such as The Shift Of My Focus, Willing To Listen, and Thankful For His Guidance.
There was finally a peace within my heart that filled my whole being, a peace that only showed up in my life a handful of times in the entire year before.
Do you know why this was?
I gave my blog over to the Lord.
Throughout 2017, I had allowed my blog to become an idol in my life. I treasured time spent writing posts, responding to comments, and reading others’ comments over the time I gave to be with my family, and to spend in quiet time with the Lord. I became entirely too frustrated when I had to stop doing something blog-related to pursue another (more important!) activity – it wasn’t a pretty picture. I had no way to balance that hobby with what actually mattered because I had placed it on a pedestal.
Amidst all of this inner conflict, something interesting happened in December of 2017: I was completely considering not blogging into the new year. I was not happy with my content, I was struggling to connect with other bloggers, and I was facing so many emotional burdens in my real life that I felt like starting over. A fresh start was exactly what I wanted, even though it would mean losing everything I had spent a year putting my all into. I kept bringing this desire before the Lord in the hopes that He would bless this pursuit, which was an idea that I knew He had placed on my heart.
Well, as you know, I did end up continuing to blog. These last six months have been proof of that fact! But before I wrote the My New Year Blogging Thoughts post, I thought for certain that Dreaming of Guatemala would end with the year. The reason this didn’t happen is because of what the Lord taught me that December, just before I gave up all hope of continuing on this blog.
The reason I created this blog was to have a fun pastime that would remind me, just by the name, where the Lord is leading my life. The posts I wrote inspired and encouraged myself, and with time, I was slowly able to be an inspiration to others, too.
Having a place to share what’s on my heart and connect with others is still something the Lord wants me to have. If I had created a blog that would just be another online journal for myself at the beginning of this year, I would not have been following His plan. I didn’t know that was the case until I brought it all before Him in prayer. I know prayer is real, and that it changes things. It changes people … I know it changed me.
I still dream of one day being able to visit Guatemala. I’d love to witness for myself its people, its culture, its natural beauty … but above all else, I desire to go wherever the Lord wants me to be in the present moment. Whether that’s in spending time reading His Word, being with my family, or writing an inspirational blog post, I know that I’ll be exactly where I’m supposed to be.
Thank you so much for reading! ❤ I honestly had no idea the post would take this turn, but I’m very grateful to have shared what went on on this blog this past year and a half. I truly don’t feel like my blog is an idol in my life anymore – I’m able to see it for what it is, a gift from the Lord, instead of being something I dedicate all my time to. I’ve taken the steps and given up my pride so that it can be a blessing in my life, and not a burden to my priorities.
I hope you have a beautiful day!