I have had this surgery now and am recovering beautifully! Come read my update post here.
Hey guys ❤ I hope you’re doing well 🙂 I don’t usually aim to share two posts in one day, but that’s just how today has gone. The one I posted earlier is about how I’ve been thinking about my responses to my family lately. While talking to my mom a few moments ago, she was encouraging me to write a post on how I’m feeling about the surgery tomorrow … so that’s what I’m doing right now.
I’m more worried now than I was when I found out that the surgery is scheduled for tomorrow. I figured this would happen, and it makes sense, but I wish my anxiety hadn’t grown. I’ve been reading the Bible and listening to uplifting songs these past couple of days, and that has definitely given me peace, but my fears have been giving me trouble.
I honestly don’t like writing a post that isn’t uplifting or inspiring even to me, but it’s where I am right now. If I suppress these feelings, I’ll only make it worse for myself. I’ve mentioned it before, and I’ll mention it again – when I’m going through something, I find it extremely hard to express the darker side of my emotions. I’ll share how I’m feeling when I’m doing better afterward, or the hope in the midst of the storm, but I have to consciously make myself write about the actual feelings I’m experiencing.
I’m thinking about: the IV, pre-op, how I’ll feel after the surgery, what I’ll be able to eat over the next few weeks, if the medication will ease my pain, what might possibly go wrong.
I’ve never had an IV before, and I wish I’d never have to. I don’t hate getting vaccines or novocain shots, but my hands, wrists and arms are so sensitive, and I fear having any discomfort in those areas. However, I know that the oral surgeon who will be doing it and the nurses that work there are very used to doing wisdom teeth surgery – meaning they’re used to helping people my age to go through with it.
A year or two ago, when I was first looking into getting braces (I have crowding and an overbite), the dentists and orthodontists I talked to said I would need my wisdom teeth out at some point, preferably before getting braces. My wisdom teeth were headed straight for the rest of my teeth instead of growing in the right direction, and it has only been since late March of this year that this movement started affecting me.
My jaw is very tight in the mornings. I cry out any time I yawn. The last few mornings at breakfast, I’ve had to slowly feed myself spoonfuls of cereal because my mouth won’t comfortably open wide enough. Various times, I’ve been unable to clench my teeth without severe pain on the right side of my jaw. It has definitely become an issue, which is why it’s easier for me to face this upcoming surgery.
I am experiencing many mixed emotions, because while I’d rather it not be tomorrow, I also want to get it over with. In fact, I’m certain that worrying about what is to come will be MUCH worse than everything that will happen!
I keep reminding myself that the Lord is already there. He knows how I’ll feel tomorrow morning, the thoughts that will be running through my head in the waiting room, how well pre-op will go, and how groggy I’ll feel once the surgery is over. He knows that I’ll have a soft diet for a while, that I’ll be glad I went ahead and went through with it, and that I will be extremely thankful to know that He was by my side through it all. It’s hard for me to focus on that with all of these frightening images racing through my head, but I know and trust that He is greater than all of that.
Following my mom’s suggestion (which I’m thankful for!), I’m planning on documenting how tomorrow goes. It will be a testimony to me for the future, and I’m planning to write a post all about how beautifully it went – because I know the horrific thoughts that keep coming to me are nothing but my crazy mind.
My worst fears over anything I’ve ever faced HAVE NEVER COME TRUE.
I seem to forget that truth, no matter how many times a situation turns out much better than I could ever hope for!
So, over the next nineteen hours or so, I’ll keep giving myself little pep talks and handing all of my fears to my Lord and Savior. It’s not easy – it’s an act of surrender that never ends. But it is well worth the effort, for the peace that comes with that is unlike anything else I’ve ever known. ❤
This is quite possibly the first post I’ve ever written and posted that did not have intense revising. Looking back over the post now, I can see how far I’ve come from how I was feeling even a while ago! I expect these anxieties to come in waves though, lol, so I’ll just keep holding on to faith and peace. It blesses me to see that even right here, the Lord is helping me 🙂
So, aside from the IV, I’ve been stressing about my diet over the next few days/upcoming week haha, so I’d love to know:
If you’ve had oral surgery, what was comfortable for YOU to eat while recovering?
Some of my ideas are: chicken noodle soup, yogurt, fruit juice, apple sauce, soft tacos, turkey sandwiches, soft cereal, etc.
Thank you so much for reading! I’d love to hear from you in the comments below ❤