Becoming a Big Sister For the Fourth Time

Becoming a Big Sister For the Fourth Time

On Friday afternoon, I found out something that I’d really like to share with you guys!

My mom is going to have another baby. ❀

I wanted to write a post about this, not only to let you guys know, but also because … well … I have mixed feelings on it.

I wish I could say that I'm excited, and joyful, and really happy about this beautiful news … but because of some deep-rooted fears that I have, I feel way more worried than I do happy.

Here's why.

I'm scared that my mom will have to go through a lot of pain. When she had my little sister Elizabeth last summer, Elizabeth was born via c-section. It took my mom weeks to heal from that, and that time was hard on our whole family, especially me, as we did our best to take care of her and comfort her when she was hurting so much.

I'm scared that others will think we're weird. When people see big families, they tend to put them in a certain category, and that makes me feel so awkward.

I'm scared that others will think I'm a teen mom. I'm not usually the only one caring for Elizabeth when we're out and about, but when I do, people have gotten the wrong impression before. I love having younger siblings – especially babies! – but because I'm afraid of others' opinions, that has taken away my joy.

I'm looking forward to this baby. I can't wait to meet him or her … but that excitement is drowned out for the time being by the worries that are filling my heart.

It will take time to heal from how that hospital stay last June drained me. I'll have to write a post on that sometime soon. And it will take me time to learn that others' opinions aren't what matter. One day, I'll feel better about this, and over the next weeks and months, I will get to the point where I will eagerly anticipate the arrival of my new little sibling.

But for now … I am thinking things through. I am praying. I am giving myself room to heal.

❀

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Throughout my mom's pregnancy, I will be writing more posts about how I'm feeling, how her pregnancy with Elizabeth went, and other life updates. I would deeply appreciate all of your encouragement, support, and prayers.

Thank you so much for reading. ❀

— Maggie

93 thoughts on “Becoming a Big Sister For the Fourth Time

  1. Awww, congrats to you and your mom! I hope she will be ok this pregnancy. Try not to worry about other people’s opinions while you spend time with the new baby, so they won’t get in the way of the happy moments and bonding time with him/her. ❀ πŸ˜‰

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  2. Oh honey, I do understand where you’re coming from. No one ones to see their mom suffering or in pain. Just remember God sent this baby. You’re so strong in your faith, I know you will soon realize what a blessing this baby is for your mom, after what she has been through in the past few months. I hope you’re well. Sending a big hug. ❀

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    1. Thank you, Cheila β˜ΊοΈπŸ’— yes this baby already has been a blessing! I’m getting more and more used to it, and I’m starting to feel more excited. ❀ we have an ultrasound scheduled for tomorrow morning:)

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  3. How exciting! If you don’t mind me asking, how many years apart are you? I find the sibling dynamic to be so fun and valuable, especially in big families. How many children are there total and how close are you all? I always thought it’d be fun to be a young adult and have a very young sibling, because the amount of insight you have surrounding their experience is very different from that of an actual parent or even as a teenage sibling.

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    1. Yes, definitely! πŸ’• Sure, I don’t mind you asking! I’m 17, and my brothers are 13 and 5, and my baby sister is 11 months old. πŸ™‚ It is definitely sooo much fun to be a young adult with baby siblings!! I love it so much. ❀

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  4. I can definitely relate to thinking of all the things people will think about you and all the opinions they will form, but just remember that family can be one of the most wonderful, important things in life, and when you let it fill you up with love, what other people think doesn’t matter so much anymore. I know it’s easier said then done. I’m still learning right alongside with you. Good luck and congrats!

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