Leaving It In His Hands

Possible colleges. Job opportunities. SAT prep. Graduation.

It may not look like much, but there’s been a lot on my mind recently.

I have been homeschooled my whole life, and having recently reached the point where I only have one year left of this awesome schooling experience is both exciting and extremely hard to think about.

I’m excited to be done, but I also believe that I’ll miss it immensely.

Part of me wants to look into schools around here, figure out what I want to study, take the SAT, and do what is the common thing after graduating from high school: college.

But then, the other part of me wants to leave it in the Lord’s hands to lead me to a college, bring to my attention which areas I should study, decide whether or not I should take the SAT, and instead, continue to enjoy all of the time I get to spend with my family and not stress continuing my education.

My initial reaction to the future is to gather it all into my hands and begin figuring this out on my own – but that interferes with His plans for me, which is why nothing solid has ever come out of my college searching. Haha!

So, while part of me really wants to figure out what to do after I finish 12th grade next year, I understand now that I can’t … and now, I really don’t want to, either.

Once I finish school next summer, I’m going to have a mini graduation party and blog about it (just like you requested, Pamela – pictures included!), continue working at my job if I have one then, keep posting regularly on this blog (probably not as much as I do now, but we’ll see!), and continuing, as always, to enjoy spending time with the Lord and my family.

College, if it’s meant to be in my life, will come in time. So will Guatemala. I know now that I don’t have to gather all of these situations and decisions onto my own shoulders; they have been piling up quite bad recently. I’m choosing to lay them down at my Savior’s feet, instead; it’s where they truly belong. ❤

“I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have [perfect] peace and confidence. In the world you have tribulation and trials and distress and frustration, but be of good cheer [take courage; be confident, certain, undaunted]! For I have overcome the world. [I have deprived it of power to harm you and have conquered it for you.]” ~ John 16:33

— Maggie

Visit the ‘His Child‘ category on my blog for more spiritual inspiration.


  1. I was forced into college, so my last years of high school were stressful, to say the least. There was a Christian college I had wanted to go to, since I was 13, but I knew at the time that was not the place I needed to be. My mom didn’t believe me, so I was forced to go to an orientation day. And it was awkward to smile at people, knowing in my heart, I’m not going here, sorry guys. But what God allowed to affirm it to my mom. Was a professor at the school, not looking at my work, but telling me I’ll make it no where as a writer. My mom just looked at her shocked, and mad. I did find a college I instantly fell in love with, once on the campus to view it. And it was where I needed to be.

    Sometimes you have to do a little bit of research, test some waters, for God to show you. Don’t just stay in one place waiting for answers 🙂 we have to take initiative sometimes, especially in things we need His guidance on. But that doesn’t mean you “have to” to go college, like many think. I have multiple friends I know who waited, for one reason and another, and they are going through their courses now.

    Also, if you want to spend time with your family, you could consider online classes. You will find a way, and God will provide it. Everyday for this next year, I recommend praying to God, and handing the future of what happens after school to Him. I prayed a year my senior year of high school for Him to help me make a friend when I went to college because as we’ve talked, I had a lot of toxic friendships at the time of schooling. My first night at my college, I immediately had a girl walk up to me and talk. She later became my best friend, and still is to this day. Not only that, it took us three months to realize SHE WAS MY NEXT DOOR NEIGHBOR! That’s the power of God, and He will provide. But invest daily pray time in these specific requests of your heart. 🙂 He’s at the door, we must knock for Him to open.

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    1. Thank you for sharing your story with me. I’m glad that you eventually found a college that was perfect for you!! I’m definitely going to be bringing possibilities and situations before Him and asking that His will be done; I know that I can’t just sit back and expect Him to do all the work. 🙂 So far, I haven’t gotten any clear answers except to wait. They’ll come one day. I’m thinking more along the lines of taking individual courses at colleges, whether online or in a classroom, but I’ll be looking more into that next year, I think. College is in my prayers 🙂 ❤

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      1. I’m so glad to hear that. I hope my advice didn’t come off too strong. I wouldn’t think you would just sit back, as you’ve shown you’re an active believer seeking God’s will. I know from my own experience, sometimes we get a little comfortable with where we are at, and we need to push ourselves. 🙂 Hope it didn’t come across as too harsh, if it did, I sincerely apologize. I’ll keep you in my prayers too. Where two or more are gathered ❤

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      2. Ohh I understand now 🙂 Thanks for the clarification. I get what you mean; we definitely need a bit of a push sometimes 🙂 Thanks so much for the prayers. ❤

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  2. I can’t wait to see your graduation post! 🙂 When I finished high school I knew college was for me, so my choice was easy. I visited two schools, one that I immediately fell in love with and that’s where I went. Sometime in my second year though, I grew tired of it and eventually graduated early. I think you’re doing a great thing with taking your time and figuring it out on your own time. 🙂 Personally I believe college is important but I know it’s not for everyone. Maybe you could go to a community college nearby and transfer out later if you want?
    I recommend you do college visits next year, even an overnight or two. They’re really helpful when it comes to making decisions of where you want to be! And since you want to go to Guatemala, maybe look to see if a school you’re interested in has a partnership with schools in Guatemala where you could go? Even if the schools you like don’t end up having a partnership with Guatemala directly, they likely offer the option to study away and you could chose to go to Guatemala for a semester or perhaps a year while still studying.

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    1. Those are all great ideas! Thank you for the encouragement. I’m up for whatever is right for me. For now, I’m pretty sure that living on campus would be too foreign for me personally as a homeschooled hahaha (even though it sounds like sooo much fun!), but online classes, living off-campus, etc would be fine with me 🙂 I’ll be figuring stuff out in the months to come!

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  3. Your blog is super refreshing…and i like the bible verses you add to your posts. I have no experience regarding home schooling but i imagine your plans afterwards will require a lot of hard work. Just do the basics and leave the rest in his hands. Lines will fall in pleasant places for you. All the best Maggie

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    1. Aww thank you, Phaytea. ❤ I love those verses, too 🙂 I will definitely be working toward continuing my education, whether it's at college, or from home! Thank you so much ❤

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  4. Good idea Maggie! I would love to see pictures from your graduation party 🙂 and as someone who is going to college, let me tell you that I also really admire people who do not. I think real ‘education’ comes from living your life in the here and now where God has planted you. Excited to see your future unfold 🙂

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    1. Thank you, Shannon! I will be sure to share them on my blog 🙂 I cannot tell you how much your kind words have comforted me. I’ve been feeling like it’s my duty as a student about to graduate high school to figure out what to do when it comes to college … but you’re right. Where God has me is where I’m supposed to be. ❤ Thank you so much for your encouragement 🙂

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  5. Last year is exciting. Enjoy it. Everything will unfold as God wants it to, especially since you are willing to listen to Him and let Him do the leading and you do the following. As long as you keep that up, and you will 😉 then you will be the success He wants you to be. 🙂

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