Making the Change ~ Week One

Making the Change ~ Week One

There is something that has been part of my life for quite some time now. It bothers me, affects each day, and negatively impacts my family – especially my sweet younger siblings. At first, I wasn’t aware of it, and when I finally was, I couldn’t have been more disappointed and upset with myself.

For a long time now, I have been battling with anger.

It saddens me to admit, but it’s even harder to live with every day – especially since I’ve been well aware of it for weeks now. It troubles my family, affects my relationship with the Lord … and it also hurts me.

I don’t really know how it started, and for the longest time, I haven’t known or tried to figure out how to stop. Last week, however, as I thought things through and talked with my family, I’ve made the decision that the time is now.

I’m making the change.

I don’t have a deadline for this series or a specific goal to meet; I’ve decided to jump in headfirst and tackle it as I go along.

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I’m not making the change for this series, but it will definitely help me to stay focused on positivity if I have a place to write down my thoughts each day and compile them into a weekly post. It will make me more accountable and motivated to do this, as I know that it won’t be easy; old habits die hard.

I have one thing to ask before I go on to write about my past week: Would anyone else like to come along?

Does anyone else have a habit they need to end, a new one they need to start, or a current one that needs changing? If so, I’d like to invite you to join me on this walk of change. It is possible when our hearts are in the right place, when we have the encouragement and inspiration that we need to do it.

You can comment on my posts, or start a series of your own; whatever feels right for you. If you’re just interested in reading my posts for now, that’s perfectly fine; I don’t want anyone to do anything they’re not comfortable with or ready to do. 🙂 Just know that I will be here for any of you, to cheer you on and uplift you in making your own change. x

So, are you with me? While you decide, let’s dive right into my first week!

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Making the Change – April 6th through April 12th

~ On Thursday, the idea for this series was born, thanks to my loving mother. She’s the one who has been helping me through all this, and I know that I would have had so much trouble following through with the change if it weren’t for her. Even though we began talking about the situation mid-afternoon on Thursday, I was still able to find ways to begin incorporating more positivity and gentleness into my daily life. I prayed about it at different times throughout the afternoon and into the evening, asking for the Lord’s strength and guidance.

~ On Friday, I did some different games and activities with my brothers, which made them happy. It also helped teach me to be more gentle in everything I do.

~ On Saturday, my family and I had a rather rough day … but it taught me some important lessons, things that I couldn’t have learned without those trials.

~ On Sunday, we all went out together as a family and had a good time. Through a few difficulties that I encountered that afternoon, I learned more about myself and found things that I need to improve on.

~ On Monday (my birthday!!), I felt like throwing flowers and confetti around everywhere I went. Haha! Needless to say, I had an amazing day – a very positive one!

~ On Tuesday, after a few mishaps, I was deeply reminded of the reason why I desired to make this change in the first place – for my family, my Heavenly Father, and myself. ❤

And today (Wednesday), I’ve written and published this post! Sharing this with all of you has been pretty difficult for me to do, but I know that it will help me and, in turn, help someone else, too. ❤

Our flaws are nothing to be ashamed of; nobody is perfect. I know how easy it is to conceal and hide them from loved ones, but we honestly couldn’t make a bigger mistake. Friends and family will be there for each other – just like I can be for you. Together, we can work side by side toward happier habits and behaviors and, in turn, a brighter future.

I have been open with you. Will you be open with me?

What is something that YOU desire to change about your life?

— Maggie

32 thoughts on “Making the Change ~ Week One

  1. Nobody is perfect, this is true. I remember being impatient some years ago, but I’ve learned to combat this by meditating on His Word and praying. I wish you all the best as you make this change in your life. ❤

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  2. Maggie, thank you for sharing this. I know this must take great courage, and I couldn’t be more impressed or humbled. And in a way, relieved, because I have often wondered if other people struggle with their temper or if i had something seriously wrong with me! When I was younger, I deeply struggled with anger. It was a very slow process to change – and even now, every once in a while, I become disappointed with myself. But it can be done, and this struggle, let me assure you, doesn’t make me or you less valuable. Watch out for shame! The enemy just wants to accuse you; God will help you. For now, I need to work on not complaining about my physical illnesses – I hope I can come alongside you in this journey! Sorry for the long comment!

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    1. You’re welcome, Shannon. No need to apologize for the long comment! That’s my favorite type of comment. It was definitely challenging for me to post this, as I had no idea what the response would be, but I had to remind myself that it is for me, not for who does or does not comment. If this series can help just one person, then it would be worth the possible humiliation. I am so happy to hear that you overcame your anger – it can be done!! I definitely struggle with shame, but I agree; those are the accusations of the enemy. I’m sorry that you’re sick! It has always hard for me to stay positive when I’m struggling physically. Best of luck on your journey – I would love for you to come along with me! ❤

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  3. I am very proud of you Maggie. It takes a big person to admit they have something they do that they don’t like, ad want to change it, not only for themselves but for your family and for God. I was such an angry younger person. Stressed, panic, anxiety. I could fill up your comments with all the “angry” things that consumed my life. But know this, it is possible to not be that way. There is hope, there is an end to it. I use to think I was always going to be that way, no hope but that was a lie, there is light at the end of that tunnel. I still have my moments but they are few and far in between now, and not severe. Gods word will help you with this, more specifically talking to Him about it will help the most. When you are angry talk to Him. You don’t have to sugar coat it, He already knows what you are thinking, so no need to lie to Him about it. I found that by doing that,(in the most horrible words because He already knew anyway, no hiding it, right?) and by saying it, what I REALLY felt to Him, it helped me discover even more of the root of my anger and since I was already at His feet, I could ask for help with the new issue I had discovered. I am here for you for anything you need. You will, with His help, get through this. God Bless you Maggie. :):):)

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    1. Thank you so much for the support, Margaret. ❤ ❤ ❤ I had no idea how this series of posts would be received! But I knew that I had to do it anyway, not for the response, but for me. I don't want my blog to be a place where I make my life look flawless and completely joyful, because that is certainly not the reality. Yes, most of my days are happy, but I also go through a lot on a weekly basis.
      The hardest part about having a problem with anger is thinking I will always struggle with it, which is definitely not true!! I know how much talking to the Lord about it helps, and confessing the wrong that I've done to my family strengthens the bonds I have with them more than it tears us apart. I'm tempted to hide my struggles, online and in real life, but to make a change, everything has to be out in the open. Thank you for being with me on this. ❤ God bless 🙂

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      1. Yes the thought that it will always be like this is the scary thing, but its a lie, a trick. I found that when I’d have one of my “foaming at the mouth fits” I’d start discussing it with God. Not why I was having it but what I was feeling. I did this out loud mostly but I have the house to myself a lot so it was easy to do. I found that as soon as I would start saying the words to Him, I would get this feeling, I don’t know if it was ashamed, or calm but it would turn into the angry feelings leaving me and peace coming.

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      2. I am glad that has helped you. I’ve done that some myself recently – telling God how I’m feeling instead of letting my irritation continue to fester – and it did end up helping me to calm down a lot. I should get in the habit of doing that 🙂

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  4. Hey Maggie!
    I love your honest, down-to-earth style. It’s very comforting to read.
    You sound such s lovely girl, really aware of the impact of your behaviour on your loved ones. Being aware is certainly half the battle! Well done for even trying to tackle your anger….
    Sometimes ‘anger issues’ can be a hormone issue we all go through at certain ages…
    I have the opposite problem. I show no anger at all; just as bad a problem as showing too much.
    Examples:
    Ex Husband blames me not showing I was angry on the break-up of marriage! ( you see, I just took all the conflicts, in silence. Not always good!)
    I can’t beep a car horn when I should. ( that’s really bad)
    And lots of other little things that people get angry at all the time, I just breathe deeply and try to walk away…ALL THE TIME.
    Have you got any advice for ME?
    Regards. Marie.

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    1. Hi Marie, and thank you! I’m glad that you enjoy my blog.
      I definitely agree; anger often does trace back to hormonal issues.
      Being unable to show anger definitely has its benefits, but I can see how it also has its problems. I also struggle to honk the horn when I’m driving! I’m worried about making someone mad, even though I might get killed because of that flaw.
      The best piece of advice I can give you is to try to express how you’re feeling, even if that’s hard to do at first. I tend to hold my tongue when it’s important for me to say something, and it’s a simple thing of conquering the fear of speaking what’s on my mind.
      I hope that helps! And I hope you’re having a great day. xx

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    1. Aw thank you!! ❤ It definitely challenged me to write about it, but I'm glad that I did. 🙂 Surrender is something that I think we all need to work on – including myself! There's always room for improvement. Thank you! I hope that you have a good night. x

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  5. Great post Maggie! I always struggle with my desire to be “perfect”. I know it’s what causes me to suffer from anxiety and what caused me to have daily panic attacks two years ago. It’s something I’ve been trying to work on for years. Still a work in progress! 🙂

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    1. Thanks, Pamela! I struggle with that, as well; the desire to attain perfection, which is not something I can ever reach! I’m having to learn to accept myself the way that I am. Yes, we always have works in progress when it comes to being better versions of ourselves! xx

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  6. Wow, you’re brave to put yourself out there like this. Battling a strong emotion such as anger, is really tough. I wish you luck. It seems like you’re off to a good start!
    You know, if I’m completely honest I would like to beat my sugar addiction. I swear it fuels me more than coffee. I don’t think I’m ready to fight it right now … but I guess admitting it is the first step, right??

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    1. Thank you ❤ It definitely wasn't easy for me to write about and share on here, but I know that it will be a positive thing for me to do on this journey. 🙂
      Ah, sugar. ❤ Yes, admitting it is definitely the first step. Best of luck on overcoming that one day!

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  7. Thank you for sharing this! Good luck in your journey. After reading this, I feel so inspired to change my own bad habit. I also deal with anger – and it’s something I’ve been wanting to change for a long time. Now I feel as though I am ready to face this ❤

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  8. Such a nice post! Thank you for it. I guess we all have some flaws within us and they are a part of who we are. If they start to affect our relationships with ourselves and our dear ones, then it’s time to change. We all need a bit of luck on our life’s journey! 😊

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  9. God uses us in many ways, and He’s certainly used you in sharing your faults. 🙂 Today, I shared a post about how I’ve been struggling with recognition. And it’s something I’ve been working on recently. God always wants us to continue to grow and when we are willing to admit what we struggle with, we’re able to accept humility. Proud of you! Keep at it!

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    1. It wasn’t easy for me to share at first, but I felt like I was supposed to write about it in this way. 🙂 I’ll have to go read your post in a little while! Thanks for telling me about it.

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